Good... And Good for You

i posted an announcement for a service activity on my ward’s facebook page. two seconds later, some random dude sent me a message… dude: hi. [i wait 15 minutes for additional information. nothing comes.] me: hi there! are you emailing about tomorrow’s activity? dude: no i just thought you were cute. so don’t worry, you guys. all’s right with the world. because i’m cute. i know you thought i was trying to single-handedly plan and promote a weekly service activity at an assisted living center. i know. but... c’mon. i think we can all agree that deep down i was really just hoping that someone would notice how cute i am. because that is my goal in life at all times. and honestly? i’m relieved that someone finally had enough courage and natural charisma to point it out in the most flattering way possible: a two-letter facebook message. and -truly- i just hope my gratitude and, above all else, cuteness came across in my lack of response to him.

i don't fail. and i don't mean that in an "i'm so brilliant and talented" kind of way. actually, i should probably phrase it this way instead: i don't know how to fail. i don't do things that i'm bad at. if i think i might fail, i don't try. this is something that i've tried to confront in the last few years. i have forced myself to try things even though i might not be good at them. and it's been a really, really good thing because i've realized that for the most part, it's okay to be mediocre. it's also been good for me because i've realized that when i put in the effort, even though i'm not brilliant, i rarely fail. having to put effort into something isn't a sign of weakness. and i wish i'd learned this a long time ago. BUT i've been doing my final round of paralegalness, which involves 5 mega tests. i've been putting in the effort and studying and trying... and there's a pretty good chance...