29
my birthday is tomorrow and the prospect of turning 29 is bringing out my crazy.
it has nothing to do with getting older (seriously, bring on my thirties. bring it!). i just can't seem to shake the thought that this is the last year of my twenties (in my head, vincent price is saying it) and it's making me think.
and you know what happens when girls like me start thinking...
additionally, i'm right in the middle of an overwhelmingly busy few weeks. i put in my two weeks notice at work last week and somewhere around wednesday, the endorphin high wore off and now there's just panic. and darkness.
and really well-intentioned psychological monkey torture from all fronts.
it's great.
so, i have this mondo to-do list that has somehow morphed into a to-do loop. it's like the wyld stallyn paradox...
my to-do loop usually starts with me looking for a mac os x upgrade and gradually spirals into loopy madness. about 10 minutes later the only thing my brain can do to escape the loop is let the birthday crazy interrupt with something weird and random like "i should totally take tap dancing lessons!"
or
"taco bell! i should go to taco bell!"
or
"i'm going to get another dog!"
or
"how much does botox even cost?"
at this point, i'd like to take a moment to talk about what has happened to my analogy. from what i can tell, there is one side of me having a birthday related breakdown. this side of me finds it necessary to- in grand, mr. roper from "three's company" style- constantly burst in on the bill & ted, unemployed, other side of me and say something nonsensical.
uh hu. yep. sure.
i guess i just wanted you to know that i know that at some point in my rambling, something went very wrong.
i suspect everything will be fine once my birthday is over with and i'm done working insane, overtimey hours and i stop getting life advice from people who really don't think i am in any way a capable person.
you do know that our ability to find our own pain amusing is the only thing that separates us from the beasts, don't you?
and by "beasts" i mean "people on reality tv shows."
it has nothing to do with getting older (seriously, bring on my thirties. bring it!). i just can't seem to shake the thought that this is the last year of my twenties (in my head, vincent price is saying it) and it's making me think.
and you know what happens when girls like me start thinking...
additionally, i'm right in the middle of an overwhelmingly busy few weeks. i put in my two weeks notice at work last week and somewhere around wednesday, the endorphin high wore off and now there's just panic. and darkness.
and really well-intentioned psychological monkey torture from all fronts.
it's great.
so, i have this mondo to-do list that has somehow morphed into a to-do loop. it's like the wyld stallyn paradox...
my to-do loop usually starts with me looking for a mac os x upgrade and gradually spirals into loopy madness. about 10 minutes later the only thing my brain can do to escape the loop is let the birthday crazy interrupt with something weird and random like "i should totally take tap dancing lessons!"
or
"taco bell! i should go to taco bell!"
or
"i'm going to get another dog!"
or
"how much does botox even cost?"
at this point, i'd like to take a moment to talk about what has happened to my analogy. from what i can tell, there is one side of me having a birthday related breakdown. this side of me finds it necessary to- in grand, mr. roper from "three's company" style- constantly burst in on the bill & ted, unemployed, other side of me and say something nonsensical.
uh hu. yep. sure.
i guess i just wanted you to know that i know that at some point in my rambling, something went very wrong.
i suspect everything will be fine once my birthday is over with and i'm done working insane, overtimey hours and i stop getting life advice from people who really don't think i am in any way a capable person.
you do know that our ability to find our own pain amusing is the only thing that separates us from the beasts, don't you?
and by "beasts" i mean "people on reality tv shows."
Comments
as i am faceing the same situation in a few months, you must post again to assure me that the sanity i will unavoidably lose will return.