revelations

i'm going to reveal something about myself that i'm sure none of you know...

i'm insecure about my height.

i know, i know.
shocking.

i suppose there were signs... like my extensive flip flop collection, and my fear of standing next to those measuring tape things on the doors at 7/11, and my refusal to join the ward choir because they'd make me stand in the back with the boys...

and although i manage to keep my insecurity hidden under a very thick blanket of smoothness and grace, it's there. sitting. latent. but ready to pounce.
like a tiger.
or something else equally pouncey.

it pounced the other day. when i was invited to go salsa dancing this weekend.

oh! which reminds me. there's something else i'm sure none of you know...

i have a love of "the dance".

i know, i know.
i'm just full of surprises today.

i love dancing. i love it in all forms. i love to dance at clubs. i love to dance by myself while i'm cleaning. i love to foxtrot, and swing dance, and even at times line dance. i love tap, and ballet, and hip hop. i love dancing movies. i love gene kelly.

and although i keep my love of the dance hidden under a very thick blanket of smoothness and grace, it's there. sitting. latent. but ready to pounce.
like mikhail baryshnikov.
or something else equally pouncey.

it pounced the other day. when i was invited to go salsa dancing this weekend.

so the question we all have to ask ourselves is, which will win? the insecurity, or the dance?

because the insecurity is telling me that if i go, i'll end up sitting in the corner.
but the love chimes in that maybe patrick swayze will come in and say "nobody puts baby in the corner."
but then the insecurity interupts and reminds me that, first of all, my name ain't baby, it's kathryn ("miss jackson if you're nasty!"). and also, i'm taller than patrick swayze.
so the love says, "why do you have to be so negative all the time?"
and the insecurity says, "i'm just keepin' it real."
and the love says, "that's the dumbest thing i've ever heard."
and somewhere around this point, i put my headphones on and listen to my violent femmes cd.

because if that doesn't drown out the voices in my head, i don't know what will.

what was the point of this blog? oh. ya. revelations.
i'm going to reveal something about myself that i'm sure none of you know...

i am a huge freak.

Comments

barnesanova said…
kat, be the dance. its that simple.

short dudes dig tall girls. its that simple.

tall dudes dig tall girls. its that simple

short dudes dig short girls. its that simple

tall dudes dig tall girls. its that simple

in short, dudes dig chicks. so don't fret. you gotta represent the katness, the katakism, the katastic katastrophe that is 'da KAT!

so salsa, hi-step, two-step, tango, or just bust out the worm. but be yo-self!
Jay said…
when you said the dance, I was thinking that you meant Garth Brooks's The Dance. Then I was taken back to all the MidSchool/Hike Skool dances that I've been to. It was scary going back there.

Don't EVER do that to me again!!!
Lance said…
I say dance. Height be damned! Let you'r pouncy dance take you. Of Course this is coming from a 1 inch tall Alian brandishing a fully automatic rifle so take it for what its worth.
Nama said…
i wonder if a tiger & mikhail baryshnikov had a love-child how pouncey it would be?
Persephone said…
I say strut your stuff. The taller, the better. Incidentally, most supermodels are tall. And they get a lotta attention. I wouldn't be surprised if the paparazzi are clandestinely following you around with their telephoto lenses... You probably should buy the copyrights to the negatives at the very least.
Heather said…
I can't believe this is even a question.

I can't remember the last time I went out without heels. 6'2" be dam#ed..

I figure that if someone is going to be intimidated by something so trivial as my height, then it is probably best they never get to hear what comes next.

It pretty much gets scarier from there because eventually there is the sarcasm, and then the lounge singing, and then more sarcasm.

(Sarcasm is not attractive). Liz's grandma said so.
Em said…
but sarcasm's all i've got...
Nama said…
you know what they say: there is no room for sarcasm in the home.

hmmm...do you think i should move out the furniture?
sassinak said…
dude, i'm tall and i glory in it... but i love the high heels... and that's a tough call to make.

pick dancing every time, there's always a boy with a topple the amazon complex at least.

heather: word.

and liz's gramma can kiss my butt :)
Andrew H said…
I dig tall chicks!
Anonymous said…
Hey Kat, I'm Ryan's sister (nice to meet you) and just wanted to let you know that I went to a concert (to a band that is apparently loved by mostly tall people) this weekend and there was easily 10 women over 6' 4" w/o heels owning the dance floor. They're not intimidated, why should you be?
Anonymous said…
there were easily...
Ann-Marie said…
i have a confession to make...i'm insecure about my height too!
Carolyn said…
i hate being tall too. our relief society president is 6 2 and i feel bad for her.
Lincoln said…
So I suppose all the attack of the 50 foot woman jokes I used to do weren't well received?
Tiff said…
The voices get to me sometimes too.
Adriane said…
So...this one time, I was insecure about my height. Then I read a blog from a very nice man, who said that he liked it when tall girls wore tall shoes...something about showing confidence? I would put a link here, but he annihilated his old blog...sad day. Anywho, then I only felt self conscious about my height half the time.

I love the dance too...can we be friends?
Leah said…
As a short girl, I've always envied the incredible Amazon. I too, am truly in absolute awe of tall women who wear heels. When I wear heels, it looks like I'm trying to be like you. When you wear heels, it looks like you aren't trying to be anything, because you just ARE. And you don't have anything to prove because you own it, and you aren't afraid to own it. I say go dancing in heels. And rock yo' sexy biznass baby.