twinkle, twinkle little bat

ya, having been on the receiving end of it, i definitely feel guilty for liking some people better when they're not around. my stupid head idealizes people. and then i hang out with them and think, "hu...you're better in my head."
that can't be healthy, right? preferring the imaginary version of people seems kind of mad hatterish and warped. but there it is.

i had this one junior high friend who, when we went to college, became a letter friend. after 3 years of emails and letters and presenting each other with the very best, very funniest versions of ourselves, hanging out was a huge let down.
for them.
that's the sad part.
they were just as funny and interesting in real life. and i was not. as hard as i tried i could never get them to stop thinking, "hu... you're better in my head."
i'm still kind of mad about it.

and mad that i do the same thing to other people.

a very, merry unbirthday to you.

Comments

Jon said…
When I read this blog I thought of the sculpture in on the second floor in the atrium of the library of the guy rowing the fish.

That's waht it reminded me of.
Tiff said…
Jon, you confuse me.
I know, it doesn't take much - but this I think is valid.
Nama said…
oh kat! i thought i was a freak for making people waaay better in my head! but seeing as you do the same validates me as a freak! Thanks!!
Andrew H said…
It would be nice if people somehow thought of me better in their head, but instead people only think of me poorly in their head and in real life.

Now how bout THAT unBirthday for you!
Carolyn said…
that sort of happens to me every time i'm set up on a blind date...i get a very distinct picture in my head of what the other person is going to be like, look like, act like etc...but then the reality hits and i find out that the friend who set me up is actually smoking crack
Leah said…
I was gonna ask if I'm a let down, but I really don't care. Ha! Take that! You're the same Kat either way for me. But, can I call you Weezey? I really really want to.
Jay said…
I think the same can be said for all the 'Ernest' movies. For some reason, we laughed at them when we were kids and have good memories, but now, they are just foolish. 'Ernest' movies seem better in our head then when we actually watch them nowadays.
barnesanova said…
jay, you spark an interesting note with your comment about ernest movies. i think i'll have to blog-a-vent about that. cause i loved ernest goes to camp.... saw it in the theater for rudy's sake!
Erika said…
Um, I still like Ernest. I first fell in love with him when he was on the PeeWee Herman show. Actually, that was a lie. I have always thought he was a creepy old man and who the heck is Vern?!?
Jay said…
What if Pee Wee Herman and Ernest fought, who would win, because obviously, they are both non-violent personalities who would most likely resort to an indirect approach to confrontations (i.e. boobie-traps and pranks)?? I think the real questions we should ask are "Who would annoy the hell out of us more?" and "Who's boobie trap would make us laugh the most?"
Erika said…
PeeWee would win because "Vern" would be the word of the day and Ernest would die from all the screaming. Therefore, Ernest would annoy us more because he would keep saying "vern", therefore causing the inceassant screams to drive us up the wall.
barnesanova said…
Pee-wee, hands down. Did you see that wild breakfast making machine? The security system on his bike? That dude I'm SURE has some crazy stuff that Ernest would go 'EWWEWEWWWWW' at. Although, Ernest could come back with that electricity he got in EGTJ. Don't know though.
Jena said…
So you're saying if I don't talk, write, email or anything with people while I'm gone, I won't let them down when I get back, right?

Sianara!
Tiff said…
Oh no Hena! You are not getting out of keeping in contact!