deja vu all over again

i used to feel so smart.
until i was maybe 8.
then it all went down hill.
that's not really what this is about.
but it's a little bit what this is about.

in elementary school, i was in the rabbit class. cuz i used to be smart. i memorized my times tables, i learned how to spell, i took the tests and moved on. 7 times 8 equals 56? fine. i believe you. can we hurry this up?
ah, to be young.
in life? i'm dumb. i'm in the turtle class. i see that now. because the same problems keep repeating themselves over and over and over. and i just don't seem to get it.
i want to get it.
i want to learn motivation, and self awareness, and integrity, and especially common sense so i can move on.
and learn something new.

after i passed off my multiplication tables, i got to go in the hall with the other rabbits and play "simon says". and all the sad, stupid turtle kids would watch us play while the teacher explained to them for the forty-seventh time that 7 times 8 equals 56. and we would feel smart and they would feel stupid and really, why did we have to memorize the time tables up to 12 anyways?
why not stop at 11?
or keep going to 19?
hu.