thinking backwards

but what it all comes down to is that, in the end i can fool my mind, but not my hair.
plus the possibility of a muddled, backwards blog.
or you might have to put effort into remembering what you're not thinking about, which involves a lot of step retracing and thinking backwards.
and experience what people call a pang.
you might remember it all of a sudden.
but eventually you're going to have to remember what it is you're not thinking about.
and worry about them later.
and i'm forgetful anyways, so it's really easy to shove things to the back of my mind.
especially about things i can't control.
because i don't like to be stressed or worried or angry.
and 2nd, it reminded me that i repress things.
1st, that i might have been more stressed last month than i realized.
but their appearance reminded me of two things.
they're gone now.
*this morning i found 2 grey hairs.

*maybe you should start here and read up.